In summary, I had everything planned out for me to die today. I had all the materials, the steps, literally everything in place for my third attempt. However, I was taking a bit to take action and actually begin, then I waited a little bit longer because I chickened out, and then I saw it. The queen died. It feels like a cosmic message to me, as I see all this commotion and all the different people that feel sad over her death. I imagine my family will feel a similar sort of shock, to have a 16 year old dead by suicide. That one […]
