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Birthday looming. Shouldn’t have happened. Dreamed I asked mom why she had me. It was too late to abort, she said. Felt so so sad for her. But relieved that my dis-ease with this life-thing finally made sense.

Just a dream. Woke up as usual. Wished I hadn’t, as usual

It was a dream and I asked mom why she kept me.
She was too far along when she found out she was pregnant.
It was a dream but it finally made sense me feeling like whatever