So I did something that should have been the end but I woke up 2 hours or so later with horrible chest pain but I am alive. I almost wonder if I am a ghost because I should not be here. It is a strange feeling. Now all I think about is I don’t want to ruin Christmas for the kids by leaving right now but really when is a good time?? Also, it’s the struggle of thinking I don’t want the kids to not think I loved them enough but at the same time, I don’t benefit their lives.
My mom gave me up at […]