Hey it’s me, it’s always a while between every post i share, this one will be long so please be patient with me, i needed to finally vent. I was active back in 2022 when i was 19, i was still pure, innocent, i was depressed and stuck. Not long after i quit this website a?d almost forgot about it, i met someone online and we started dating, i went to college September 2022 and hell started. Even tho it was an online relationship, it never failed to make me feel objectified and seen as an amusement. He used to control me and […]
I can’t believe, last time i posted here was in 2022. Things have changed and actually many many things have changed. I went to college by the end of 2022, it wasn’t what i wanted to do, dated a narcissistic, attempted on my first year, stuffed myself with pills thinking i will escape the great depression. Then i didn’t go, i started accepting how my life was going, i took a break from my boyfriend, met new people and started enjoying life. I experienced many great things after that and i was at the happiest years of my life. Then i graduated and the graduation […]
It’s been a year now, i never posted though i saved many draft that i couldn’t post . I read people’s problem as way to forget mine. But things got worse, school stress, family, loneliness, anxiety, depression and life.. I used to cut myself as a coping mechanism , physical pain makes me forget the war inside me, but i think im going back to it because im really hurting,im so in pain and drowning. I spend so much time on scrolling Instagram without nobody noticing me or just checking on me. I spend time on discord watching people talking and being ignored by everyone.. […]