that’s all I can say really. why mom do you hate me so much? why mike did you kick and hit me when mom wasn’t around? why did you call me a waste of space? why dad did you let brooke burn me with her cigarettes? why when she left did you isolate yourself? I was 7 years old making my own dinner out of anything I could find in the cabinets. cleaning the house and making sure you had enough beer for that night. I through all the bottles away and hid them so your friends wouldn’t see what you had become. ive been […]
that title just describes it all. I honestly hate myself. I don’t look in the mirror because I know I will hate what I see and I will hate what I have become. My arms used to be clean slates and now they are nothing more then a cutting board filled with old and new marks. I promised things that I have broken. I try not to let things get to me but how can you fight your own mind? there came a time when I just gave up and stopped trying. I hate myself for that. I was in therapy for awhile but I […]
I cant seem to do anything right anymore. My depression is getting worse and worse and everybody thinks that its getting better. I have been out of therapy for 2 months and I need to go back but I don’t have the strength to tell my dad. My mom called me a selfish ***** and hasn’t contacted me in over a week. I moved to my dads to be happier and I am in some ways but its my mind that I cant get away from. I miss my best friend. I miss seeing her everyday she says nothing has changed but I feel it and […]