I have matured in many ways and lived a good life but it seems im back in that useless hole again… no one can get me out only myself and i need to start searching for my motivation its a jourmey that will be painful but it has to be done or else i will keep feeling like this; this sorrow this uselessness and without hope. I starting a journey again and i want to be able to break out of this again.
i feel like dying, dying in my own filth i the worst type of man i cant go on anylonger my future seems more grey and stupid more and more i wish my life would end probably then life wou;d be brighter for everyone around them
today was thanks giving i wish i couldve gave something to thank god for… i mean today was actually a happy day and i dont feel sad but i know when this is all over im going to be sad again.what should i expect from life when i dont know what to do or what to expect from the things that happen in life…. right now i feel like just writing i guess but i want to know i should be motivated to help everyone around me.
i feel like i cant help no one not even myself, today me and my sister tried to go see my mom whose pretty far away well me and her are still young we can drive except we dont have a car and the thing that happened was that i cant help but think about what my sister has said many times over and over again….. im dont do anything to help her with struggles and stuff that has happened over the last summer, before summer started a week before school ended my mother was deported … i didnt feel sad or mad and i […]
life is a hell hole…. i hate it i hate the people and i hate the way they think they act…. pretty much i just hate life i feel like no one wants to get close to me… that no one likes me i feel like everyone should just die!!!! life is something i dont want anymore i want it gone so i dont have to feel so lonely with death i wont feel lonely anymore i would just feel nothing and nothing is better than feeling lonely.