For years I have not been happy. I put on the fake smile and laugh along with friends and coworkers. I pretend to be having a blast when in fact I feel absolutely alone despite being in a crowd. I hide the cuts and bruises I give myself, or make up excuses (“fell down the stairs again”)
I have always hated my physical appearance. I have never had a serious relationship, likely due to the fact that my father abandoned my mother and I when I was small and I have had little contact with him over the years. I don’t know how to bond with […]