Suicide seemed like such a good idea.
Rationalized it with images of my family skipping happily into the future and my partner moving on.
Wrong, my family  and my partner are tense and angry. They want to help but they are so mad at me and don’t know how to.
Can’t explain what prompted to attempt it. I have no idea whether I wanted to die or just stop the fears, the doubts and the self loathing.
And now after 2 days, I’m still in hospital waiting for my kidney function to return to normal  and the drugs to pass
I still feel untethered to this world. No one […]