i stopped cutting a month ago, but i accentdentally cut myself with a knife i bought, then i did it again, and again.. etc. i hate life, i get pissed when people smile, like, fuck you some of us have to wear a frown and your walking around fuckin happy and such, i hate everything but cigarettes and my record player…and then my abusive mother started in and told my therapist i didnt come over for x mas…..and now i have to take more fucking meds, i fucking hate her… my girlfreind broke up with me for some more handsome and muscular dude, so its […]
well, i started cutting my self about a month ago, and now i have cutmarks all over my legs, (so no one sees them) but every time i cut i go deeper, the pain is just so amazing, but, a week ago, i cut an a spot on my leg and i bled for four hours, my dad didnt notice but im scred i might hurt myself, i cant stop the pain feels soo good, i rely on it to get through the day, how do i stop?
i think i might be crazy, whenever i get the chance, i leave the house to smoke, i hear voices and ive heard them even before i started smoking, and i think about killing myself and others, i envision the fear in their eyes as i pull the trigger, i know im a sick freak, but i dont want to tell anyone about it, i stopped going to therapy, because my therapist okayed me, i will not go back though as the voices seem to manifest themselves strongly in her offices…. the voices tell me to kill people , ive yelled at them but they […]