noodle

noodle

I don't really know what I'm doing here. Why I am here. But I am. I don't want to write about it, but I will. I love the internet mostly because I don't ever want to see a head doctor. I love chatting and sharing experience and giving advice, especially with people that I don't know, or am not sure that they're even real. I have many ups and downs but have been constantly in between for some time now. I've always hated people - nothing personal. I guess the loneliest people are the ones that are the saddest and that care the most. I am a caring person, it's fun and human interaction is kind of like a social experiment. I have forgotten about "friends" I had in real life, I haven't made substantial contact since mid 2012. Had (or maybe still have) drug problems. I've always wanted to not exist, since I can remember, since I was a kid I cried myself to sleep every day and didn't know why. I used to have eating disorders along with the drug use but at the moment I'm too numb to care what I see in the mirror. We are here now. So be here now.