Why refrain from suicide because of supposed love ones? why hold on to human emotions if my wish is to be dead? and if I don’t commit suicide? then what, live the rest of my life doing a bunch of things that’ll mean nothing after I reach my inevitable death anyway?
If my goal is to die, then the last thing I should hold onto is things that only matter to living beings, love is a chemical by any other name, whether it is directed towards a person or a hobby.