I am 55, but at 21 I put a gun to my head and wondered why I shouldn’t pull the trigger.
After contemplating for about 5 minutes like this I became aware of the ridiculous and uncomfortable position I was in. I realised the motivation for suicide was strong but was not coming from within me. Having removed myself from most of the negative influences in my life just to get to that point, the motivation for suicide had left me. There was nothing in me that wanted to end my life. Others, it seemed, were wishing it on me.
I resolved that if I didn’t follow […]