i’ve always felt abnormal .Now i am 18,and i still do. I think i have bipolar disoder,body dismorfic disorder and depression.thats not a good way to “start” my adult life.even though i am miserable inside,my parents an twin brother dont suspect about it.I’m pretty sure it is beacause i try my best to look normal.well,i am fucking tired to pretend all the time.I am fucked up!I know that i should just tell them what i feel,but i cant do it.So i feel trapted in my onw head.Suffering alone.
i hate the bad thoughts i have about myself.I mean,i know i have a wonderful life.I Have very worried and caring parents and frinds,my family is wealthy,i dont have any health problems etcetera.but I can’t stop thinking that i am too dumb to go to med school,that i am to damm uggly to be interesting, that i lack social skills compared to my frinds,that i dont make my parents proud and that i am to selfish.I think it is why i want to become a doctor,so it would help me stop worring with such ridiculous shit compared with real people’s problems.i just […]