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okatonshadow

I just don’t know

by okatonshadow 12/10/2016

written by okatonshadow

I used to be so clear on life and everything I wanted. They told me “you’re so smart!” “you’re going to be so successful!” “you’ll be great when you grow up!”. I thought I knew who I was, what I wanted, what I would do.

But I’ve moved so many times and each time I feel like I’m changing and adapting to new environments and loosing a bit of myself. Each time I want to be less connected and less defined so it won’t hurt as much. I have no idea who I am; if I want to have close friends or not; if I should […]

12/10/2016 1 comment

Why?

by okatonshadow 9/29/2015

written by okatonshadow

The questions everyone has been asking for a while now is “why?”. So, I’m now going to tell you why.

Humans are idiots. I’m not saying we should all die, but humans are idiots. If you have something big to live for, goals, dreams, whatever, go for it. But I don’t. The only thing keeping me up right now is my family, and that doesn’t feel like enough anymore. I move all over the place, so I don’t have any concrete friends. My favorite thing to do is read, because I can be taken into another world, and because books have a definite ending. It’s the […]

9/29/2015 7 comments

My story

by okatonshadow 9/28/2015

written by okatonshadow

Okay, please don’t read this unless you are prepared to read a long winded story of my life. Many of you won’t understand and that’s okay.

The relevant part of this story starts in third grade. Back then, everything was bright and shiny, and death unthinkably far off. Sure, I knew it existed, but I never saw it up close. Then, my teacher died of cancer. I get scared, more than the other kids, for some reason. I tell my friends that they should be scared too, that we could die at any moment, and, like third graders, they don’t take me seriously. After a while, […]

9/28/2015 1 comment