olderthandirt

I’ve known in my head for months I’m going to complete suicide eventually.  I’m way older than most of the people posting here, but your pain is my pain.   I wish there was a magic bus for us all to board to take us to “AllBetterLand”, but there isn’t.

My problem is my inability to vocalize my problems.  I would rather die than tell my SO that I can’t pay the bills.  Sick and sad huh?  I know.  I know it’s unreasonable.  But it immobilizes me.  I get panic attacks when I think of getting the mail.   He has plenty of money to help […]