I have 3 brothers, sister and mother. My dad suffers from dementia… My sister is my only sibling, whos been acting like a real one. Mother said that my birth was the biggest mistake ever in her life and she’d be so happy if I had offed myself. She blames my narcotic painkiller addiction which I developed after I was hit by a speeding car and by a miracle survived. It hurts. It really hurts, I always wanted to love my brothers and especially my mother. I’ve found my salvation in helping random people whenever I can. I guess their gratitude compensates somehow for the […]
Don’t. There is hope. There is much more than that. I’ve been studying it for 4 years now and I have to tell you: opiates are divinely efficient in chaging the way you feel, instantly. It’s unbelievable. If it wasn’t for them I’d be dead for sure at the age of 18 and I’m 22 now.
Opiates are very addictive, because they make you feel so good, 99% people with suicidal ideations have disrupted endogenous opioid system pathways. It’s always better to be an addict than being dead. Pharmaceutical industry is working on opioids that aren’t addictive, as well as anti-addiction drugs. NEVER LOSE HOPE […]