I have another family outside my real one. They are my Spanish emmersian group from school, but lately I realize that they are not what they seem, and they get crueler everyday. But now I’m not so sure I love them anymore. I have known everyone there for 9 years and I’m not sure I can put up with them any more.
Also my best friends mom died of breast cancer and it’s made me so sad and depressed. I know I shouldn’t be talking because her family probably feels worse, bu I can’t help thinking that I should meet her […]
I’m thinking that if I do commit suicide, it would be pills. I’m afraid that I will puke them up though, but there are a lot around me house so if I take a ton of different ones it might work.