I’m so fucking tired of being pushed. I just want to move on but I keep getting dragged back into the same bullshit over and over. I never get the chance to put everything behind me and start fresh, because the fucking assholes won’t fucking let me be. Why is it so fucking wrong to want to forget? But no, I have to continue to fucking suffer for their god-damned satisfaction. I have to be made an example of. They won’t rest until I’ve been bled dry, so they can find a new target. I’m not a bad person, SO WHY DO THEY HAVE TO […]
I’ve never been able to understand why I should feel this way. Why I should feel I have to give so much of myself to others when the only thing I ever get in return is a scathing comment, an angry look, a sullen silence. They act like they are offended when I try to do good for another, and spit upon my offering. At this point, so much of me is gone that I don’t even feel real anymore. I can’t feel anymore. All the things that used to give me joy now stare mockingly back at me. Why have I given myself away like […]