oryhara

I’ve read posts on here for a while, but this is the first time I’ve shared here. And since this site is about success stories, here is mine.

I used to think about killing myself. I thought long and elaborately. How would I do it? would it hurt? Should I stick the gun in my mouth or to my temple? Could I pull the trigger of a shotgun with the barrel in my mouth? I thought about it fairly regularly. Daily, at least. And anytime I heard news about the world. Seems like news is always negative and or depressing, but that’s tangental to my story. […]

Lately I’ve been very fixated on methods. I seem to contrive of a new one daily. While yes, bullet to the head seems simple enough, that doesn’t account for where, when, how to aim it, how to exactly pull the trigger, and what message to leave behind,
These are the things which consume my thoughts, and I have conceived of a number of plans for how to end my life.

Rambling details of various methods redacted to comply with site rules.

Gun, knife, rope, jump, fire, drowning, my brain just keeps coming up with these way to do it, and I can’t stop […]