My memory has been getting worse, at first it was things like forgetting events in my childhood and teen years. I grew up in a horrible household so I figured it could be due to ptsd but now it’s become a every day thing, I forget my keys, phone, purse, wallet, important events and important things in general, including during work. It’s so embarrassing and I’m afraid I’ll lose my job over it. I am constantly tired and dizzy when I stand. It’s it weird I’ve been so willing to kill myself many times and now that something could be wrong with me I’m scared […]
I’m alive today, I am 23 years old and I am alive. I joined this page when I was 16, depressed and hopeless I continued to be suicidal. I moved across the country at 19, I was jobless living off my partner, tired, depressed and hopeless. I just got a job after 3 years of making bullshit money here and there doing side jobs. I am DRAINED, I work for 14 hours and day, sometimes more. I am content with life but still have depression, I knew it wasn’t going to just “go away” it doesn’t work like that. People kept saying “once you have […]
I don’t think I can go on in life, I’m going to move out with my sister so she can start her life and then I’m going to kill myself. Maybe with a gun? Pills? Who knows, I just can’t find any worth in myself, I’ve tried so hard to get somewhere in life but it’s not working.. I can’t be happy. I know when I move I’m not going to be any happier because I’m a nobody and nobodies go no where and aren’t worth anything in this world.
My nights have been pretty lonely, mostly laying in bed crying about nothingness. My girlfriend recently got a job and hasn’t really been texting me, so just me and these four walls and a few cigarettes every so often, my room is a ice box sort of the way my heart feels, an empty space or maybe like a shotgun blew through my chest, I just don’t feel anything and no one cares but I’m okay with that, no ones every been there so why would they now? Anyways just needed to vent blah blah blah
I need some help figuring out how to ease my pain I’ve literally have been laying in bed in agony with shooting pains down my right arm and right shoulder blade it’s gotten to the point where it’s so stiff it’s hard to move. I do not have a choice of going to the doctors, so I’m wondering if anyone has dealt with it because I took a few Motrin and naproxen and they aren’t helping AT ALL
Insomnia is kicking my ass tonight and I can’t stop thinking how much easier everyone’s life would be if I was gone, everyone has just forgotten about me and I wish I could be someone to be proud of, but instead the people I help get better and I am no longer needed by them
Not that anyone cared, anyways I need to vent a bit because I have no one to go to. I’ve been with my girlfriend for almost 4 years and she told me last night that she’s perfectly okay with dying, and she isn’t worried about anything, I’m not sure how to take that, she told me she knew it was selfish but she didn’t care. Is it wrong for me to be heartbroken that she said that or am I just overreacting? It’s like she doesn’t even care that I exist