Since the turn of the new year ive become so so depressed. A feeling that the world is no good and will never get better like I’ve posted before. Today I got to such a low point, I got all the pills in the flat together and put them in a bag ready for when I’m ready. But somehow later I’ve come out of such a low episode. I still don’t see any point in our existence and have no patience for talking about meaningless crap but not gonna go end it tomorrow. I think it’s because I’ve seen how much all this is affecting […]
Right now, and for a good few days I’ve been feeling like the world is full of shit and I don’t want any part in it anymore. I’ve been fighting suicidal thoughts for years, been on antidepressants done cbt, but my anxiety is getting the better of me again and nothing feels like it matters anymore. I used to have drive and feel a real sense of purpose, but now its enough to even get through a day… even an hour or so. I’m having to sit so still just to stop myself from going into automatic self destruct mode.
Why does society need to be […]