I am 59, I do not work, my children have all moved away, I have no friends and am surviving on very little money. I do not feel I have a purpose in life. I am not interested in voluntary work because of chronic pain. I am depressed and just wish I had the courage to kill myself. my mother and grandmother died at 72 so I guess I have to wait that long. life is unbearable. I go for days not seeing anyone. get up in the morning with no plan or purpose and go to bed at night in a lonely house.