she’s gone the most beautiful girl ever been with over a stupid argument it’s just the latest in a series of women in my life including a wife that are gone and they couldn’t run fast enough because I always do something stupid to f*** everything up a she was 20 years younger and it was probably dOomed from the beginning anyway. I hate my life I hate riding the bus to work alone everyday at night I hate coming home alone on the bus in the morning after work I hate coming to my tiny apartment alone and then if I’m lucky I sleep […]
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rottdkorpse
rottdkorpse
Almost 50 just destroyed a relationship with the most beautiful girl ever been with over a stupid argument. I've been married and I've had girlfriends and every time the woman has ended up leaving me and they all could run fast enough and it's been my fault and coming up on 50 years I have learned to hate myself more than anything in the world. I'm a union blacksmith at a large company, but living alone in riding the bus alone back and forth to work means that I'm really nothing but alone at work and then I come home and I'm alone at home the only time I'm happy is when I'm sleeping none of this is ever going to change I'm going to die alone I don't care about anything nothing means anything to me anymore and I wake up every morning disappointed that I didn't die in my sleep the night before because here comes another crushing f****** awful and the evil meaningless rotten day oh god please kill my f****** ride corpse take me to hell I don't care just get me off this miserable f****** planet I can't do this anymore I hate my f****** life and now that she's gone there's no f****** hope - 50 years old two bad knees the end of a mediocre career nothing but bleak unhappiness in the future in a world that's already falling apart death can't come soon enough