I want it all to end. I just wasn’t built for this world. For twenty years I seem to have fought a relentless daily battle just to keep going…and for what…to hurt more people? Alcohol,drugs,meds, you name it, I have abused it, the decade or so that I drowned myself being the worst. I have caused so much pain. Nothing takes away the desire to die, it knaws at me from the minute I wake until I eventually sleep. I can’t take it anymore. I have tried in recent years to alienate myself from everyone around me and I avoid relationships, I just feel sorry for my parents, […]