I dont know how it will be finished. all depend on a phon call that i will make after tomorrow.any way i had enough bad expriences in my life to conferm that the main problem in my life is me .
last night at 4 am i wake up -without any feeling of the usual painful anxious or guilt in my heart ..i had just the usual insane thoughts on my head but without any related feelings nothing special has happened yesterday ,my big problem still there ,and i was not drunk … maybe cause i almost have the exit way in my hand.. anyway it is nice losing the connection between my thoughts andy feelings
suicide is my only way for me now i am 34 ,just a bad quality person selfish stupid slow,i have no friends no carizma i have 2 kids from 2 different women but i dont feel sad to leave them in this world may be because i hadn’t enough love in my childhood –. i cannot take anything seriously and no one take me seriously . …now i have a serious problem and i dont have any power to face it because i know that all the stories of success or love or happyness are just dreams .the only truth is that we are mortals […]