I dont think i realise how much i hate myself untill last night . Â I drink too much , i sleep around, i have hack my arm over and over last night there was so much blood i thought i might actually die but im still here and that i can tell you is the worst part. I want out not in the way i want to actually talk to someone or some shit like that but in the actually i want my heart to stop beating. I want cancer, i want a disease that will kill me. I want the pill to actually work, […]
I am so very alone. I mean this in the way not one  single person i know would be like your the person i need to talk too and hang out with right now. I dont have that person i dont mean like boy/girl friend thing. I mean that person in your life that gets you. I hate this feeling, i always feel out of place and just wrong ike i been in the wrong for noting and everything. I wish i had someone to talk to not about serious stuff just to laugh giggle maybe cry with one person i could feel that wasnt […]