I have wanted to die for as far back as I can recall. My mother was clinically depressed and from my teen years until the early 90’s I self medicated with drugs an alcohol. Since I have been sober (mid 1992) I still wish I would die. I am not going to attempt suicide but everyday when I was up I think ‘when is this shit going to be over” you see I know it will be over someday and I believe that being here is the ‘purgatory’ of the catholic faith. We are getting the crap simmered out of us and the longer […]