I just want help or maybe to stop living or run away from everything. I’m at university and I have friends but I’ve lied and cheated to everyone and haven’t lived up to my parents reputations or expectations. I want to be alone away from everything. I think about killing myself but more than anything I want my guilt and sadness to stop. I feel awful and horrible for the way I’ve acted but I can’t go back on my actions. Apologizing to people 4-6 months after the fact doesn’t solve anything. I feel horrible. I just want to be done with everything. I can’t […]
I found this site awhile ago when I was having a really bad time. ive always wanted to post something but its nerve wracking. i dont feel like i deserve being happy. even typing these words i feel ashamed because ive seen so many people have things worse than i do. i go to a university and am studying well. not the best grades but not the worst. i just feel like nothing matters. i have these opportunities but i just feel stupid and alone. i had a really bad time earlier in my life and thought about ending things. i cut myself and still […]