I have been cursed with depression for about 15 years now. I have been so distant and hurting I have pushed everyone I have ever loved or cared about away. I have horrible nightmares and wake up crying. I am alone and it feels so empty. No future, no purpose, no happiness. I don’t know how much longer I can pretend every day. What I really want to do is crawl into a hot tube with a couple bottles of wine and just go to sleep. I don’t know what to do next.
