class just ended and i am trying to get myself together. Â I don’t know if anyone even reads this but it feels good to be writing to someone other than myself all the time. Â i am so confused and so lost as to why I feel the way I do. Â it’s been ten years since i’ve been suicidal and for some reason i can’t get it out of my head and my body wants it but I don’t but I can’t stop it no matter what i do. Â i feel like it is inevitable that it will get the better of me. Â what am i […]
I can’t get it out of my head. I don’t know what to do. I should be a functioning college student but all I can think about is death. My death. Images, thoughts, impulses, plans…attempt…and I just can’t get it to go away. taking pills didn’t even make it go away, it just made my life more miserable than ever plus this overhanging feeling that I SHOULD have died so why on earth am I STILL here??? I want to get out and I don’t know how other than a shotgun to the head. I need out. […]
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