I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be provocative but I’ve given this a lot of thought over the years. This earth is of course hell (or something like that), that cannot be denied, it is riddled with bad things happening constantly, some of it seeps through your TV and it just washes over you. You see it, yet you do nothing. Â Oh, you might feel upset by it but the act of feeling upset does not qualify you as a good person in itself. I too see it, and I do nothing, what can we do? Really, what can we do? Â We can’t do anything […]
I have survived 2 very serious suicide attempts, first one was 6 years ago, the last one was 18 months ago (exit bag and overdose). I would love to say that things have improved for me since them but they have only worsened. Waking up in this hell once again after a long time preparing your death and building the courage to do it, well, is absolutely horrifying. I don’t see the world the way I’m supposed to, I only see hell, and for me, the fact that I survived my attempted escapes adds to the nightmare of being here. For the past 6 months […]