I just don’t know why. I’m always back in this same cycle. Looking constantly for a way out. I never wanted kids but here I am with a 2 year old now. Maybe if I finish myself now she won’t ever remember me. All those years cutting then stopping for a while didn’t matter if I just cut again. All so my mind can shut up. I will never be anything and now I just want to be nothing.
There has to be people older than me on here. I just really need advice. Im 21 years old. Since i was 13 I’ve been really depressed and fucked things up for myself. I didnt do good in school. Well i couldn’t i had to many crazy thoughts and no motivation. I didnt think i would need it later. Now i cant get into college. I feel so hopeless. It sucks because all they see is a piece of paper from high school and that defines me. Its been 4 years since ive graduated and no luck. I got help for depression last year september […]