I really don’t know what I expected from them. They don’t care about me and it’s not the fact that they don’t but the fact that I ever thought they did. I care so much about them and I just want someone to talk too that doesn’t make me feel as if just being around them is a burden..but I don’t have anyone at this point and I dont think I have ever been this lonely..
being a human is the hardest thing i’ve ever had to be. And i don’t feel like myself anymore. And i’m so sad it hurts
i wish someone would help
i realised that my days of being treated like crap by half of my friends ends right now. They don’t give a shit about me.. and guess what? i don’t give a fucking shit about them either
they can all fuck themselves.
in other news, i’ve been listening to the smiths basically non-stop and right now my life is just a blended mix of anger and pure sadness. idk for some reason for the past 3 days i’ve just had this unspeakable rage.. and there’s nothing exactly that has caused it ?
i don’t really know if this is better than the “being […]
lol i just realized how bad i’ve fucked shit up. And how much of an over sensitive prick i am especially with my friends. And that i get sad over the dumbest things that i shouldn’t even be sad about. And that i’m confused about a lot of things.
and i hate that i feel so damn hopeless and i hate my family and i hate the fact that my mum makes me so sad and i hate that i can’t talk to anyone or i don’t have anyone. And i realized how alone i actually am.
And i also hate the fact that i sound […]