It was a Friday. I talked to a lady from sallie mae about my plans and she insisted on setting up a forbearance on my student loans and tried to talk me out of going through with killing myself. I was completely absorbed in this dark void of fucked up hurt, loneliness, rejection, guilt, self hatred… Absolute depression. I had pushed all of those feelings down into myself for so long that I completely lost my shit one day… Then, two months later, I was driving up where my phone wouldn’t work. Where it would be impossible to find me. I parked at a trailhead […]