I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts and awful behaviors through much of my conscious life. The furthest back I can remember being such a narcissistic, awful, and boring person is from elementary school. I’m not going to paint some bleak and extreme picture where I am the most tortured soul on the planet because, in reality, those younger years were not bad in the ways that I see for most people. I grew up with divorced parents and little-to-no friends, and I was relatively indifferent to it all; I still am. Every time I’ve tried to write out my thoughts and feelings it always comes off […]
