The solution to all my issues scream suicide. But that’d make everyone’s life around me conplicated and damaged.
So I guess I’ll trudge along.
I dont want to get up, I’m so exhausted. I don’t want to get out of bed ever again
I come home for thanksgiving break, and feel more suicidal than usual. Is it because I’m reminded of the failure I am? How can I blame them for my demise when theyve give me so much
My heart is heavy & torn, weighed down by all my mistakes & the chains I’ve worn.
I woke up today and couldn’t muster up the energy to move from bed. The overwhelming feeling of loneliness and failure drains all of my energy the instant my eyes wake up. I wish noone cared about me, at this point it just adds on responsibility and obligation.
Just trying to keep my head above water. This feeling of being overwhelmed always seems to creep back at these hours of the night. I don’t want to go back to my counselor, he didn’t help me very much though I know his intentions were there. Where do I go though? What do I do? I feel trapped and alone
Relapse and repeat.
I want to be with someone who feels similarly to the way I do. I feel alone being around these people, I’m not like them, We don’t think the same way or have the same perspective on things. I havr to supress mu actual thoughts and ideas because if I don’t I’d be outcasted.
The feeling of being overwhelmed is staggering, even crippling. It makes me want to stop everything I’m doing and just go away. I cant run from my mistakes .and responsibilities though, I know im just a boy but ill try to be a man.
I hate being alone,I hate that I have to hide who I really am. But if I let it out noone will think of me the same ever again.
I’m just so tired I wish everyone who cared about me would go away so I can too.
Slowly parting myself from everyone else, I don’t want anyone to care about me so I can finally go in peace.
please god bless me with apathy im tired of suffering
What else is new?
Woke up in a hospital at 7am after blacking out from drinking. That statement is so embarrassing to say in it’s own. I feel like I embarrass myself often but fuck what other people think at the same time. I drank to forget but im not going to do it again because when I woke up everything was just worse than before.
I wish I could tell someone how I am, I feel so alone but at the same time telling someone wouldn’t make me feel less lonely because noone could ever know how I feel even if they knew how I think or knew my situation I’d still be alone, so so alone.
It’s been a while since I’ve posted here, Mainly because I havent had time to do so. School has started and im drowned in homework, which is a blessing for me because it distracts me from the bad thoughts…Thats all I can seem to do is distract myself, the thoights never go away they only get covered up temporarily by my being busy lately. I have still managed to read a few posts here on SP every once in a while. I still feel alone nothing seems to change that but I think that’s how it’s supposed to be.
i’m locked in prison by my own mind, day after day I watch as people socialize and enjoy their lives. I’m just trying to make it so noone cares about me anymore, then I’ll be free.
The world has strong and weak people, and I am one of the weak.
I’ve been struggling with this condition I’ve had for years now and I think the idea of accepting it is interesting. It atleast brings me some comfort to know that I know how my life will likely end, and why it will end. Maybe this is just me giving up, and I definitely don’t feel comfortable with how I feel. But it’s gotten better as I’ve come to grips with the fact that I will probably be dealing with this the whole rest of my life (however long or short that may be)