Syotos-

It’s 5 til noon, the sun is starting to come out & the cooling breeze passes through my room

yet I lay here on what looks to be the start of a beautiful day & question whether my life is worth living any longer

Do you know the feeling, of being betrayed? Feeling as if your heart has been ripped out of your chest? The overwhelming thoughts filling my head & pouring out as my tears run down my face.

 I continue to question why did this happen to me? Why wasn’t I good enough? & What did I do […]

Is there light at the end of this tunnel of depression and sadness?

Does anyone know? Is there hope or is it just a lie we tell ourselves?

I feel so lost. I dont know what to do anymore, Im tired of the depression, the suicidal thoughts, and the everyday pain. Going through life pretending to be happy, pretending to be something Im not. I often feel loneliness and hopeless, asking myself is there anything worth living for anymore? The wanting to give up is always on my mind. I hurt myself, and then Im disgusted by it… disgusted of myself. But as much as I try to stop, I cant. If anything, I wish I could do more. I wish I could end it all.

I dont want to live anymore

I tell myself, lying so helplessly in a darkened room alone

My head fills up with thoughts of what was, what is, and what could never be

I have to do it…today

Sitting in broad day, overcome with depression and sadness

I see no light, no hope, and exhaustion from seeking a nonexistent cure

What will everyone think No, theyll be better off

Letters are harder to write, just one will do.. Short and simple

Im sorry, but I knowthis is what I have to do now, theres no other way out

Im almost there

My heart should be racing, blood pumping but Im overcome with calmness

Tears  descend from my eyes, […]