I feel taunted by life. As soon as things start looking better, I feel life says “Ha ha” like Nelson off the Simpsons and reminds me of how much life sucks. I even moved countries and I am still taunted. I just need to find the correct method. Taking a few sleeping pills to sleep my problems away. Wish I had better luck.
I am addicted to dysfunction.
I wonder if it was all the dramas my aunt made me watch when I was younger.
My ex cheated 6 months ago when I was recovering from my stroke and having multiple surgeries. Even after all the pain he caused, I still miss him everyday.
Every moment, every hour, every minute I wish I was with him. I’ve dated around, but everyone fails in comparison (I try hard not to compare).
I understand Glenn Close’s character in Fatal Attraction (although as an animal lover, I’d never harm an animal).
My ex is not the most attractive guy and he has many faults, but I […]
10 months ago I had a stroke. I still don’t have feelings in my effected hand. I bump, knock over, drop things unintentionally. If I’m not looking at my hand I don’t know if I am grabbing anything like potato chips or if I drop something in the car. It’s beyond frustrating. When people hand me thing it takes me a while and sometimes they give me a look like “hurry up”.
That being said, I went to my favorite thrift store and found an amazing tank top that I loved. I must have dropped it or something. I thought I bought it, but I didn’t. […]
I wanted to see M for the last time and his cat (I love both of them).
I drove for 6 hours and he cancels on me saying “another time”.
Little does he know, this was going to be my goodbye to the both of them.
I got them both a final gift. I guess I’ll leave it by the door.
I don’t have much fight left in me.
Whatever wind was left in my sails is gone and I contemplate how to successfully abandon ship.
This week I’m turning 30. By this time I thought I would have settled down, I thought my life would be in order. I was abused as a child, both mentally and physically. I was bullied at school and at any other programs or places I regularly attended. I’ve wanted things to end for over 20 years now. 9 months ago I had a stroke, found out I had a brain condition, had multiple operations including brain surgery. I learned to walk again and regained most of my normal functions. However, I struggle with using my hand and have constant pain. To makes things worse, […]
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