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thehurtknow

My father was murdered when I was 13 and my mother died of cancer when I was 18. I have been on my own with few friends for most of my life now. I have loved and hurt and continue to love and hurt. At age 33 something happened in my life that very few believe, most people will deny exists, and everyone else just erased from their lives including me (the person it happened to). Something biblical, scary, and that I wish I could find someone who would believe me if I told them. As of now, I am very alone after the "incident", most people have pushed themselves away from me personally because of fear of validating that what happened to me truly exists. I live day by day finding a reason to want to live because after what has happened to me I truly do believe in a "heaven and hell".

The wonder of why?

by thehurtknow 5/6/2013

written by thehurtknow

I wonder why I want to die,
rather yet to live and try,
Ive lost it all and got it back.
Just to not want it at all and go off track.
My will is gone because I gave my heart.
My life is empty because you tore it apart.
I can no longer care about myself anymore.
I wish there was a way I could lock this door.
The door to my own self worth.
I am worth nothing but your are everything,
my gift and your curse.
I pray each day for the lord to take,
My life away and give me grace.

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