Even though I go through things I want yall to know that I am here for you and that I will talk to you whenever I can because you are worth so much more than you think. Even though I think of myself as shitty I still try to help other people and talk to them and try to be there for them and I just want everyone to know that if they need anything im here. If you want to email me thats fine, ill give it to you. if you want anything else to talk ill give it to you because i just […]
So to start this off I feel like there needs to be a back story to truly understand what is happening. Back in 2013, the summer before my freshman year, my best friend killed himself and i had a really hard time dealing with it. i went to mental hospitals for two years on and off trying to help my suicidal thoughts and my depression and anxiety. needless to say nothing ever worked and im still the same. it never gets easier its a lie. but im still affected by it and each day i try to move on but i cant. nothing ever works. […]
its been a while since ive been here, and reading all my stuff i put on here from years ago i still admire how i feel the same. maybe a little less suicidal but still there. i am still trying to go through things myself, still dealing with my best friends death and everything i was going through. the only difference now is that im actually going to try and get help. im going to try the medication and therapy. i think ill be okay with that since it will be better than drugs and alcohol like ive been turning to. ive messed up so […]
im here for you if you need it, so you can email me liliananicole67@gmail.com im going through a lot right now but if you need help or just want to talk im here for you
i constantly tell people not to hurt themselves or that their beautiful or worth something but yet i tell myself the complete opposite going through so much crap and yet i give hope to people but cant give it to myself. i could tell someone a million reasons why they shouldn’t kill themselves or hurt themselves but when i try and think of even one reason to stay here i cant. why is that?
i am nothing. every since my best friend Danny died my life has become less than shit. he was the person i could talk to when i had no one else who i could. my family hates me and its like no matter what i do i can never make them happy more or less me. i miss him so much and it seem like everyday i have to find a reason to stay on this earth. ive tried so many times to die and i come so close every time but someone ends up saving me somehow. that doesnt mean they love me. i […]