My boyfriend is the only one who I told I’m breaking,I think he’s forgotten though.
He just keeps getting mad and upset and frustrated wih me and he tells me I’m pushing him away and I tell him things about ex’s and he struggles too forgive me but I’ve forgiven him for so much that hes done in his past.
I need his support,but he’s forgotten I need it..but I don’t know how too tell him in a polite,non attention seeking way….I need him..I’m scared of losing control..
Is it worth me posting my story,I’ve had a pretty shitty life so far,and I’m wondering if maybe talking would help..
There’s a lot of things bottled up in my broken self.
I just need someone too talk too.
ANYONE .
I just need someone who can’t use my problems or past against me.
These thoughts in my head are horrible.
I’m so scared,it’s not even the fact im having suicidal thoughts,its the fact that nobody can hrlp me and that this time they’re scaring me.
They’re winning.
For the first time in a long time.
What do i do?i dont feel in control i just keep screaming and crying,i cant eat and im struggling to stand for long periods of time..
I dont want too go,not yet..but i might have too.
Today’s been a good day.
I went round my boyfriends house..we fucked and cuddled a lot. I even ate some junk food with him,last year I wouldn’t have dreamed of doing that.
I even had a bit of anxiety and he just held me and played with my hair
Yeah I fucked up the other night,but I recovered.
Ladies and gentlemen,there’s always hope.
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