TheSlowDecay

TheSlowDecay

I'm 21. I've come to a point in my life where I ask myself, "what have I become?". With my past haunting me, and being a T.I. (some will know, most won't) for the last few years, I'm on the slowly decaying path to self destruction and eternal death. I am left with no friends and no family. I've lied to, decieved, stolen from, and dissapoi ted everyone I've come into contact with. I've left a trail of destruction and burnt bridges in my wake. Beyond repair. Beyond retribution. Beyond redemption. Christ couldn't help me now. The Devil acted through me when My eyes were closed, abroad and roaming in this dream world we call the the Matrix. And I, (my soul, mind & body) have been paying for it ever since. And will continue to do so until I make a choice which could mean death. But I don't want to die by their hands'. So its a countdown really to my suicide. I haven't set the timer, but little do you nor I know, it was set a few thousand miles ago. Wait for it... My soul is black like the night sky in a smog infected Industrial city. I am numb, morphine could not come close to this. I don't know how much longer I can survive. Wait for it...