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Fairy tale

by ThirdClassWorldCitizen 11/9/2017

written by ThirdClassWorldCitizen

Previously: The seventh

I don’t like happy endings. I don’t like sad endings. I don’t like endings!

I feel terrible when I am at the last few pages of a book or in the last few episodes of a series, especially those whose characters I can relate to or whose stories I wish I could have lived. Close to the end I have to face the fact it’s all fiction, the product of someone else’s mind, that the characters and their stories will forever end with a period or with the credits and everything will vanish — OK, there might be sequels, but at […]

11/9/2017 4 comments

Forever responsible for what you have tamed?

by ThirdClassWorldCitizen 11/7/2017

written by ThirdClassWorldCitizen

Digression from: The seventh

I’ve seen many times people saying that no one cares for them, that no one would give a damn if they killed themselves and other things along these lines. It’s terrible being alone in the world, and I do feel sorry for their situation. However, I can’t stop thinking that if no one cared about me it would be easier for me to take some radical decisions. More specifically, if my mother didn’t care about me it would be very easy for me to kill myself.

My mother was always a very kind, caring and honest person who did everything […]

11/7/2017 2 comments

The seventh

by ThirdClassWorldCitizen 11/5/2017

written by ThirdClassWorldCitizen

Previously: My life is just an image of a rollercoaster anyway

I didn’t jump from the bridge three years ago because I realized I would be able to kill myself at any moment. With this in mind I felt free, there was no rush to end everything anymore. But after I failed on yet another attempt at restarting my life, despite death being the most logical thing to me, I didn’t try to kill myself.

Death is not bad, and it is not simply a way out as some put it. It is when our minds disappear, setting us forever free of all memories, […]

11/5/2017 1 comment

Would you change the age on your ID?

by ThirdClassWorldCitizen 11/4/2017

written by ThirdClassWorldCitizen

Digression from: My life is just an image of a rollercoaster anyway

I wish I could hack my country’s systems and change the age on my ID. It would be like getting another chance at life.

Some months ago I was at college with a group of students from my class who were between 18 and 21 years old, and they started to guess each other’s ages. One girl guessed I was 19, and another guessed I was 21 years old — but I was 32! I laughed so hard inside! Hahaha!

In the end, despite feeling kind of guilty about it, I let them […]

11/4/2017 12 comments

My life is just an image of a rollercoaster anyway

by ThirdClassWorldCitizen 11/3/2017

written by ThirdClassWorldCitizen

Previously: Would have I jumped?

My eternal battle to graduate from college started about 15 years ago, after I left high school. Since then I stopped and resumed my studies seven times — thinking about it makes me feel so ridiculous — and in six of these cases I had to go through all those damn lengthy admission processes. So much wasted time… I feel bad both for the wasted time of my life and the resources I made each of the universities waste with me.

My friends would be impressed by how I made admissions look something trivial, especially because I always aimed […]

11/3/2017 4 comments

Ironies and Contradictions of modern life — A response

by ThirdClassWorldCitizen 11/1/2017

written by ThirdClassWorldCitizen

This is a response to the post “Ironies and Contradictions of modern life“. I started it as a comment, but as I wrote more and more I figured that it became more than a comment and turned into something that could be of a more general interest.

I’ve seen many times people talking about having a happy poor life, or saying that poor people are happier than rich people. However, people who say this don’t notice that a poor life is not the same as a simple life — they are pretty different things.

No sane person would want to be poor, and I hope I […]

11/1/2017 7 comments

Would have I jumped?

by ThirdClassWorldCitizen 11/1/2017

written by ThirdClassWorldCitizen

Previously: If all else fails…

Good and bad things happened after that day when I almost ended everything on that bridge. More bad things than good things, unfortunately. Was it worth continuing my life? If I had seen into my future, would have I jumped instead?

I was 30 years old, I had no college degree and I had left college again. I also had left my job and my professional background was so mixed and confusing that it would be hard to get a decent job again… I didn’t really leave that bridge alive because I trusted I still could be successful, in […]

11/1/2017 1 comment

If all else fails…

by ThirdClassWorldCitizen 10/31/2017

written by ThirdClassWorldCitizen

“If all else fails, I can always become a hippie.”

You have probably seen this phrase or some other along these lines, didn’t you? I did it many times, but never really thought about it and never ever seen someone seriously considering becoming a hippie because everything else failed for them — no, movies don’t count.

Some years ago I planned and almost committed suicide. I was 30 years old. It was not the first time I had thought about killing myself, but it was the first time I converted thoughts into actions.

I came close to it, I think. I am not sure if it was a […]

10/31/2017 7 comments