thisisskindeep

i miss nick. i think. i’m not entirely sure what i miss about him, but i think i miss him. there’s a hole in my soul that i can’t fill with anything. sometimes, when i think about being with someone and just being loved i feel a bit more whole, but then it goes away. i was distracted and filled it with cheering for the past few days, but now that i’ve made the team i guess i don’t feel so whole anymore. my score sucked anyway.

i need someone. i want to be in love again.

Are there any websites like this one?

I’m reading this book called “By The Time You Read This I’ll Be Dead”

It’s about this girl whos tried to kill herself multiple times, and she finds this website called Through The Light (Slightly like this one) and sets a final date and everything. Then she meets Santana, a 17 year old with cancer. She’s trying to shut everyone out of her life and he keeps pushing in and i don’t want either of them to die in this book sighs

Anybody from Maine?

I’ve noticed that there’s a lot more people talking about suicide methods now that it’s getting darker and colder. I, feel the same. I can’t very much do anything to help this feeling; I can’t cut because I start cheering in a week. Cheering. Jeez. Never thought I’d hear myself say I’d be doing cheering. Especially in high school. Wow.

Hang in there guys. We can make it through.

Anybody from Maine?