I don’t really understand the point of this site. I am not being shitty or anything like that….just wondering how all of this works?? I NEED help in finding some easy way of getting “the job” done without ANY chance of survival and in hopes of finding answers since I posted early yesterday I only had 2 comments and they were to help me as in “I am here for you” and that type of thing. Thanks, but no thanks….I just am going crazy here wracking my brain and nobody understands that I WANT an END/ just an END that is all!!!! Why do I […]
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ticktockgirl
ticktockgirl
Hello, I am in my 30's & yet I still feel like an indecisive teen. I have a really great family & I am thankful for that. I can be surrounded by hundreds of loving people; yet feel like the loneliest girl in the entire world. I have been knocked down, dragged through dirt, molested, raped, bullied, & rose above it all (or so I thought), I have always been a philanthropist & became so popular only to ruin my own name. I AM and WILL ALWAYS be my biggest threat/ enemy. Life is nothing more than people trying to compete with one another. Who has the newest carpet, who has the nicest car, who owns the most property?? NOBODY really gives a shit PEOPLE!!! You all can go and lift your leg, take a piss, & mark your territory. I am finished with this "so called life". In the end, we all end up as ashes and/or dust.....nothing more. I am a NOBODY & the most self-destructive woman I have EVER met. I am also the biggest pussy when it comes to suicide, I WANT it, I TRY & have continuously tried many MANY ways to hit my self-destruct button in which I fail over and over and over again. HELLLLLLLP and show me the way!!!!!!!!!