my biggest problem is every attempt I make to improve my situation ends in utter failure dropping me lower each time. I’m getting to the point where all I can do is laugh at my futile attempts, doomed to fail. at what point im i the fool for even bothering to try again?
Here at the darkest part
is where I must choose to start
a place I want to leave behind
but always blaring in my mind
I cannot run and cannot hide
from the darkness that lies inside
the answers I seek to find
questions I know of not which kind
the greatest acceptance, my chosen despair.
upon this life I do not dare
to call the darkness from which I hide
I sink my head, “in lonely torment…” I cried!
I run from this gathering of host
the face of all, I am afraid of most
this darkness I keep within
hidden beneath this drape […]