bad week, worse than most recently, almost lost my mom last Monday, heart issues (i already want to be gone when she goes so i wont have to feel anything on that day) have to go somewhere now, maybe I’ll get lucky and have some fool kill me in an car accident. life and seat belts are useless for me. of course i wont be so lucky, bye.
I’m ready to die, just have a few things to do before i make it happen. update the will, pay a few bills etc. Figure i have about a month to 2 months. have felt like this for about 30 years and it’s getting worse. I’m 52, have a totally meaningless, depressing life, no wife, kids or anything like that. have always felt like i didn’t fit in anywhere. have a little time on my hands while i’m making the final arrangements, so what the hell. just another useless person in this wasteland of a society.