I can’t sleep.
I couldn’t sleep.
Death kept knocking on my door as I tossed and turned.
I try to silence the noise with the covers over my head but the blankets, supposedly comforting, suffocated my breath.
I lay awake while Death continues to pound on my door.
Louder.
And louder.
BANG! BANG! BANG!
Like gun shots on the wood.
How can I sleep with such a racket?
How can I silence it?
I start searching.
Where are they? Where are they?
I look frantically in my room.
BOOM! BOOM! BOOM!
Like bombs in a war.
There!
Found them!
But do I really want to […]
…we’re all feeling alone?
Staring at the screens of our desk tops or phones
Counting out one by one of lost little souls
Typing rants and poetry of our woes
But we’re not alone…
You’re not alone…
You and me…
We suffer from a similar foe
Twisting our thoughts to make us feel alone
Like we’re the only ones
The only one
In a room filled with lonely ones
-22
I just wanna be in
a better place
a better position
a better person with
better people
better goals
better mindset
I just need everything to be better.
-22
….the bottle
The pills will make you insane
And if you don’t maintain your feelings
Your brain has already found a way
Instead you watch your hands shaking
The room is spinning, you’re getting dizzy, losing focus
And your thoughts are filled with images of a man in a red suit
Whispering ugly truths…
How did you get lost?
How did it get out of control?
You were on a right path
Then you turned left
Spiraling down a rabbit hole
Digging again another grave
Don’t make rock bottom your home
And tears are okay
Keep filling the jar
It’s been rough but not rough enough […]