There is nothing else i an think about now, than not being here. I just.. I don’t want to be here anymore, i don’t feel alive, Â i don’t feel like i belong here. Lately i just feel like i am staying alive for my parents, because i do know that they would be devestated if they lost me – even though it in many ways, would probably be much easier.. My mother said that she couldn’ take this no longer. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to think anymore. I just wish that i could disapear away from this planet. Everything […]
I am surrounded by an incredible sadness. It lives inside of me, in the people that I met, it is around me, it is everywhere. It is me.
Or well, I don’t know if you can call it an actual sadness, maybe just more emptiness. That is what I feel. I feel empty.
Like a shallow shell, just wandering around in the world, with no care for anything or anybody.
I just think that I have given up in a way. I see no point in fighting, because I don’t feel like there is anything to fight. This is just who I am, maybe this […]