unattainable

And it feels like I’m stuck between transitioning out of it.

I hate this feeling of emptiness, and yet at the same time it is a comfortable feeling. A feeling that I’ve lived with for all my life… Somehow being sad has adapted to a daily thought that is always waiting for me with open arms.

I don’t think I’ll be able to see what my life is like with my depression being resolved, there’s too much pain to go forward…

I’ve finally done it.
Finally found someone who actually loves me back, resolved the best of what I could for my family and made friends who I could be sociable with… And yet, after all that bullshit I pondered on for 19 years of living…

There was nothing there all along.

I guess this whole time I was chasing a dream that I thought would make me happy. But in the end I just don’t feel any better. It seems that I’ve come to the end of my road. I’m tired of looking up at the stars, wondering why I’m never happy. It’s clear that there’s nothing […]